A New Start

Well here I am again, trying to sort out all of my thoughts. I don't know if anyone reads this, but I apologize for my rambling in advance.

1. I have moved to a small town called Thomasville. It is a cute little town and everyone says that I will like it here. I sure hope so, but I have my doubts. First of all, I know NO ONE here. I have met a few older people (older or around my parents ages) but that does not substitute for friends my own age. While I was in Demopolis, I had no friends my own age, but I was a short drive away from Livingston where I had friends. Here I am a good hour and a half from anyone I can call a friend. My hopes are that I can find a good church and meet people who will become my friends.

2. I am teaching by myself for the first time and frankly, I am petrified. I don't feel prepared for this and am afraid the kids will tear me apart. I am really just afraid of failure. I feel a bit like I will throw up every time I think about the first day with the kids (which is Tuesday). It doesn't help any that I am totally in the dark about the curriculum and what I need to teach and will be until Monday (that's right, the day before the kids come back to school). I am going to try to keep a journal/blog of my first few months teaching.

3. Living alone is weird. The dishwasher broke. I don't get paid for two weeks. I am lonely.

But on the bright side. Everytime I have done something new, I have felt this way! And I haven't failed miserably at any of the other things, so perhaps I won't fail at this.